Hi, I'm not going to give my name, just to be safe - after all, people in my family have tried and will probably try to harm me spiritually. I'm in my early twenties, Brazilian, a university graduate but without a real job. I like to study anything, read, play video games, board games, take oracles, watch films and listen to podcasts, usually about politics. I'm an introvert, with no friends, no boyfriend or girlfriend, really a lonely witch - the name of the blog is sincere, even if sometimes it's painful to remember that. I'm sentimental, affectionate, clingy, sometimes a bit clumsy, with a very vulgar vocabulary, but polite when I need to be; I like fashion and make-up, I'm good at handicrafts. I speak four languages and plan to learn more. I've lived abroad, but this is where I belong. Oh, and I also love to cook, especially sweets. I love trying out new recipes and creating my own versions. I also have a passion for music, from classical to good old rock'n'roll. Whenever I can, I go to concerts and festivals, it's where I really feel alive. I've been singing for over a decade, mainly musical theatre, and I play the piano and guitar, as well as the recorder.
Ah, the image above is a very faithful and detailed representation of my appearance in the past life in which I was a Celt, by the way.
Blessed be.
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Ao ler o mapa astral de uma amiga, entendi finalmente o porque dela acertar algumas coisas intuitivamente – disse que eu tinha jeito de cartomante e minha mãe, de astróloga, muito antes de saber que esses são de fato nossos conhecimentos mais extensos. A casa 8 dela é em Escorpião, ou seja, a espiritualidade e sexualidade dela é regida por Plutão/Hades. Escorpião revela uma capacidade mediúnica como uma de suas características principais, e sei disso por experiência própria já que, por nascer no zero grau de Sagitário, tenho muitas, e muitas mesmo, características de Escorpião.
Somando isso com meu Plutão ao lado do meu Sol e na casa 6, revelando minha rotina diária, minha casa 8 em Aquário, e meu próprio signo solar quase sendo Escorpião… basta dizer que não tinha como eu escapar de ser puxada pelo mundo espiritual – e antes lidar com isso segurando as rédeas eu mesma do que deixar que coisas inexplicáveis possam tomar controle de partes da minha vida sem minha anuência.
Ao ver a casa 8 dessa amiga, avisei a ela que deveria estudar sua mediunidade para entender o porquê da intuição dela ser tão forte. Qualquer religião serve, obviamente; o problema é a necessidade de um direcionamento, indiferente de qual vertente religiosa ou só mesmo espiritual, sem ser associada a uma religião. Essa amiga me pediu indicações de recursos, considerando que sou um ratinho de biblioteca e adoro estudar.
E é por isso que estou compilando aqui uma lista dos recursos que venho utilizando para expandir meu repertório de conhecimento esotérico e místico, além de espiritual. Os em outros idiomas podem ser traduzidos por alguma ferramenta como DeepL ou Google Translate, a escolha é sua. Deixei vinculado o link de compra dos materiais ao símbolo de carrinho de compras. Os não disponíveis como exemplares novos para compra, anexei ao símbolo de livro um link do meu drive com o arquivo PDF! Divirta-se!
Lista continuamente em atualização
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1. Baralho de 78 cartas, mais compridas e com mais figuras que as cartas vulgares, que servem para jogo, adivinhação e interpretações.
2. Prática de adivinhação que utiliza esse baralho.
A situation in my life led me to reflect on who would be responsible if someone took a certain action after a reading from any oracle.
A few things were passed on to me by my master, although I haven't had many lessons with her yet: never talk about betrayal; don't identify those responsible for murders; warn the consultant not to take any action aimed at finding out more about the subject of the drawing. And I followed all these rules.
One of the waitresses at the café where I study every day asked me to see what had happened to her brother, who had been missing for two years. She (called S. here) had dreamt that he was dead and came to me for confirmation.
I confirmed it, said that the death took place in Rio de Janeiro, and that he was in a serious relationship at the time. The waitress asked me to tell her if he was single or not, as there was a possibility that he had left a child before he died, which I promptly realised was non-existent in the letters. Yes, the brother had died. He had died during a serious relationship, but there are no children from that relationship.
He had died on a trip to Rio de Janeiro, probably to seek a better life (this was told to me by the gypsy). I learnt more about who had ordered his murder and how he had died, and I realised that it was because he was involved in a dangerous life, which would bring harm to me and the deceased's family if I revealed it. The gypsy told me not to reveal it, and I didn't.
That happened a few days ago. Today, when I arrived at the café, one of the other girls told me that the waitress I did the reading for hasn't been to work since, and that she justifies her absences by what I revealed in the letters a few nights ago. Immediately, I felt a sense of guilt beyond belief.
I was told this information about the absence of the deceased's sister from her work twenty minutes ago. And as I write, I feel an immense and irrepressible urge to cry. I feel responsible.
The girls are having to deal with a reasonably full café because of the rainy days, with one less employee, and I feel guilty. It's my fault, isn't it? For revealing information that led to the behaviour of waitress S., who decided not to come to work anymore.
However, waitress F. told me that S. had learnt nothing more from my letters. I only confirmed what she already knew. From what I understood, waitress F. was telling me that I wasn't responsible, because I hadn't given her any new facts that she could focus on to justify her behaviour.
But I can't see it that way. And so I began to debate in my mind whose responsibility it is for actions taken in the face of a print run?
Do I bear responsibility for waitress S.'s continual absences from work, because the reason for her absences is information given to her by me? Or is it her responsibility for missing work? If she dies going after the information I didn't reveal, because I realised it would be dangerous, and I warned her to leave it alone, is it her responsibility for killing her, for the act itself; hers, for going after what she shouldn't have; or mine, for warning her to avoid such an action?
Uncle Ben was right. With great powers obviously come great responsibilities. Are my gift of clairvoyance and the others that make me the witch's soul that I am, blessings or curses in this case? Isn't the responsibility for this waitress's faults mine, because I'm the trigger? It could be, but doesn't she have her own brain to make her own decisions and attitudes?
Do I still feel like crying, feeling guilty? Absolutely. Whether the other girls blame me, I don't know. I have to be responsible for what I reveal, don't I? Wouldn't it be better if I just didn't open any more letters to anyone, even if they asked? Would that be a heretical attitude on my part? Am I denying gifts that are blessings instead of aptitudes that I see as curses at times like these?
Would it be better to have these gifts or to have them taken back by the Gods, since I apparently haven't been using them properly? What would be the right way, given that there are no manuals? Should I take the continual presence of these gifts within my reach as an approval from the deities of how I've been using them, considering that the gods show no mercy, least of all to mortals who use the gifts they've given incorrectly?
To conclude this text, I asked the waitress F. and the waitress I. if they blamed me for the actions taken by the waitress S., and they both said they did not.
"It's her actions, not yours. You're a nice customer, you make us laugh, you trust us, we trust you... There's no reason to hold you responsible for her behaviour when we know and have heard what you've told her and it's not the first time she's been like this. You were just the latest justification," said I., who isn't very talkative.
Still, the question remains. Whose great responsibilities stem from such great "powers" (being, in fact, the powers of the Gods and entities, we humans are only allowed access to them, not their "owners")?
In my opinion, the oracle therapist has a duty to translate what the spiritual plane has to say to those who can't instinctively interpret and translate the signs - it's another language, just like any other. A witch is a native speaker of such a language if she's a medium, while someone who wasn't born with access to the spirit world will have to make an active effort to become fluent. What about the consulter's responsibilities?
I've seen texts about the responsibility of oracles. The right of the consultant is to know the message that the spirit world has to give them. What about duties? What are the duties of a consultant in the face of a draught?
Maybe in a few months I'll have an answer to this within my own spiritual development.
DISCLAIMER: I'm not generalising or saying what other witches/esotericists experience with their faiths. I ALWAYS refer ONLY to my beliefs and experiences.
Even if I stop to think for a few minutes or more, I can't remember exactly how I decided that I needed a more concrete and forward-looking spirituality - and I usually remember everything.
Growing up, I always knew that I had some kind of spiritual affinity, considering that I've seen spirits here and there throughout my life - but my mum had never told me anything that confirmed this until I, in 2014, remembered something that happened when I was three years old. She then told me that I'd had other experiences, even if I didn't remember them, and I understood that as my reality.
I had never decided to call myself a medium; the stereotypes are so grotesque and society is so hypocritical that it judges anyone who can see the spiritual world that any religion preaches exists. In November 2022, I decided to start exploring my mediumship.
I believe that in December 2022 or January 2023, I spoke to my mother and considered following Candomblé or Umbanda when I considered my black, gypsy and indigenous ancestry: it's not because I haven't felt the pain of my ancestors who were unfortunately raped for their blood that I won't honour them. I was afraid of being accused of cultural appropriation when I started looking for this ancestry, and I began to think about which other religions would fit in with my deep-rooted spiritual precepts - ever since I can remember, I have firmly believed that the Earth has its own life and consciousness, and that it balances itself, because everything is like that, negative and positive energy, masculine and feminine energy, for example. When I mentioned these concepts to my psychologist, she suggested I look into Wicca.
I didn't really know anything about Wiccans, I just knew that the followers of this precept called themselves witches. I began to identify strongly with the reverence for the elements, but some part of me was still missing - I never went in for spiritualisation because I don't like limiting dogmas. I'm like any Sagittarius - a good adventure always cheers me up, especially if I follow my spontaneity and am not afraid to be original, or strange, I've been called both.
After a few months of trying to fit in with the Wicca tenets of various traditions, I still felt unsatisfied. So I began to create my own journey, choosing topics of study related to any and all spiritual/esoteric fields in which I expressed an interest. When I discovered the existence of a witches' circle next to my psychologist's office, I was afraid - while I missed being able to express the traditions and share the rituals with others of the same faith, I knew that the great fusion of different cultures and spiritualities that I had brought together and created as my own path under the torches of Hecate would not be accepted by many people.
I took out more and more oracles, trying to understand if the Goddess was satisfied with my great concoction, and everything led me to realise that she was. Recognising this, I was suddenly able to meditate and my spells worked more and more, because now I was being myself, my mind laid bare before the Great Mother.
If you think that being a witch could be the path for you, I want you to think about what your journey will be like, without lists of compulsory knowledge drawn up by others or limitations imposed on the spiritual world by those who don't experience it the way you do. Am I a witch? Yes. All women are witches - the first witches date back to kitchen witchcraft, making stews and nourishing their families with food lovingly prepared in a cauldron by the fire. Everyone has a bit of doctor and madman... we could also say that everyone has a bit of doctor and witch.
How me It was my decision to become a witch. I started out at home, alone, without even my mother's help or any participation in my rituals or my faith. She has always given me the freedom to follow whatever spirituality I wanted ever since I learnt that I have a mediumistic predisposition, but I never felt the need to explore this path until 2022, and walking through ancient pagan beliefs was what I chose for myself, whose rituals I performed alone but not without my mother's financial, emotional and spiritual support - when I questioned my faith and thought I was doing everything contrary to how religions are normally followed. It's not traditional at all, and I've read in several places that it would even be wrong. But, as I see it, why would the Goddess refuse devotion from a witch seeking a path to better living and better honouring pagan ancestors just because she wasn't coming down the pre-established path? Pre-established by whom, exactly?
Through this question, we arrive at the same question about God. Does God exist? But it's logical. With many faces, in many pantheons. Zeus, God, Olodumarê, Osiris, Odin and so on. God exists, but what doesn't exist are the limitations imposed by the Catholic Church and other Christian denominations that claim to know how God thinks, acts, what He considers right, wrong, etc. Once this is understood, we move on to the realisation that God is different for each person; he expresses himself in different ways; he acts in different ways, more visibly for some and less clearly for others. Everyone has their own truth above that imposed by religious leaders.
I guarantee that the God and Goddess will not expel you or punish you for following their own precepts and rites, because your faith is true and just as important to the deities and entities as the combined faith of any organisation or collective rite. The collective unconscious is one, and you have access to the energies of that egregore in the same way that someone living the commandments to the letter does.
I call myself a witch because I am, because it's what defines me as a spiritual person and as a person who is faithfully devoted to paganism and especially to the Triple Goddess - a devotion that I now know has lasted throughout all my past lives, especially the last Celtic one. One of the Wiccan principles that I incorporated into my practice was the Wiccan version of the Hippocratic Oath that doctors chant at their graduation: I swore never to harm anyone on my own initiative, nor to help in any spiritual ritual that involved harming a loved one, whether on this physical plane or not, and I have done so. If someone attacks me, I don't take revenge; I don't attack back. I know that the Goddess protects me and that such an attack will be retaliated with Her strength and power as She sees fit and as She wills.
The Almanac is more succinct and focused on the reverence of the Goddess and the God regardless of their faces, incorporating all of them in their titles of Goddess and God, without specific names; it also indicates the phase of the moon, the day of the week, the time when the moon's position goes out of course and when it returns, the colours of the candles for daily prayer and the definition of incense for your moment of devotion.
Drawing a magic circle through the elements and invoking an Earth Goddess, an Air Goddess, a Fire Goddess and a Water Goddess for each element, each at their appropriate cardinal point (Earth to the north, Air to the east, Fire to the south, Water to the west, although the shamanic traditions have differentiations) is something I learnt to do while studying Wicca, However, today I know from my spiritual master who follows a path as original as mine, mainly through Umbanda in her work with the Gypsies, that the way I draw the circle is something she's been doing for forty years, and not something exclusive to Wiccanism. So even the most basic thing, like a circle of protection, crosses many beliefs - and you can throw everything into a blender and decide what you're going to strain out to determine your spiritual/religious essence.
The faith of each one of us begins within us and can find similarities in the beliefs of others, perhaps as participation in a collective cult such as Catholicism, Judaism, Islam, Evangelism, Umbanda, Candomblé and thousands of other devotions around the world; However, you may not find a mirror in anything you find when you desperately search for spiritual foundations that can help you distribute and better bear the weight on your shoulders caused by the experiences of past lives, this life and everything that must be worked on spiritually through the profession of your faith when you begin to follow the signs seen in the stained glass windows of your sacred space. Stained glass windows are found in temples, but they are also found in ourselves - we can all choose to see the world through coloured glass, showing us the world as it is perceived through each colour.
Considering that each colour of a stained glass window is a different religion and form of devotion, everyone sees the same thing, but each with their own point of view and experience - no one has the power or should be able to break your inner stained glass window. If you do, know that there's no breaking that coloured crystal that guides your faith to your spirituality.
It will always be there for you, although sometimes the light is dim and distant; with light and spiritual enlightenment as your goal, no matter how long it takes, you will reach it, and bear in mind that you may be the first and only one to forge your own paths, and that doesn't make them any less correct or any more right than the others already forged before your quest for self-knowledge and for reasons greater than those explained by scientific rationality, without any spiritual intervention.
I hope that my stories and experiences can help you to understand your faith and to accept its originality and belief as it is, without measuring it by rulers already pre-established by other dogmas, if that's what you want.
In the name of the elements of Earth, Air, Fire and Water, of Lady Artemis, Lady of the Moon; Lady Athena, Lady of Wisdom and Strategy; Lady Persephone, Lady of Spring and Flowers, Queen of the Underworld; Lady Yemanja, Lady of the Oceans; in the name of these, I close the circle I opened around myself to write this text.
To make matters worse, Brazil is a country with high rates of religious intolerance on the part of the majority faiths.
Okay, assuming someone will one day stumble upon this blog that functions more as a journal and personal Book of Shadows than anything else.
Even though I've always noticed the blinding aggressions to those whom devote themselves to any religion but Judeo-Christian ones, even more after the election that brought the now ineligible man to our presidency's chair; using the faith of people by allying himself with those whom pretend to be devotees, as those preachers that make a living out of stealing from the believers' donations to the church and don't even try to hide it; even though I had already known all that, feeling it first-hand is something else entirely, isn't it?
If anyone ever reads this, let's make things clear. Before 2015, I would have agreed that politics was truly a matter of opinion. From the parliamentary coup - Yes! Coup!!!! According to the responsible for the coup himself, his words shared during the most recent presidential run,admitting the lack of an illegal act, which is required by our Constitution when impeaching an elected president — onwards, politics is no longer a matter of opinion. It is a matter of character. It is a matter of democracy.
In case the perhaps inexistent reader of this post find themselves in the authoritarian fascist spectrum of “politics”, or voted in 2018 for the genocide because “the Labourers' Party (PT) has been too corrupt” and “Moro is a fantastic chess player”, leave this blog IMMEDIATELY.
Before I pledged myself to the Goddess as a witch and started to live as a neopagan, I was already a neurodivergent bisexual woman; being a witch only adds to the list of minorities I am a part of. Any voters of the former fascistoid government that was even too dumb to perform a successful coup (the greatest luck of our country is the lack of intellect and competence of the government elected in 2018) probably call any religion that not their own a “work of the Devil”. Starting with Michelle Bolsonaro, our former first-lady, saying during her speech that the Alvorada Palace's (the official residence of the President elected) kitchen was consecrated to Satan; the racist remarks when Lula back when he was a presidential candidate, was showered with popcorns in the House of the People in Salvador, Bahia; remarks about Christ that the Lord himself would have hit them if He'd hear their words… that's lack of character, lack of knowledge of basic societal rules, and maybe some ignorance about the current laws of our country.
Pretending I'm blind to it all, I can bring forth knowledge to those that, even being disrespectful towards my religion and that of others, don't understand the right of every Brazilian citizen — as many other rights, but here I'll elucidate only about one. There's an essential and enlightening book that raises the following pointers about the rights and duties of the Brazilian citizen, whether they are “good Samaritans” and “the head of their house” — any subcategory included.
Art. 5
All are equal according to the law, no distinction in nature, guaranteeing to the Brazilian people and the foreigners resident in this Country the inviolability of the right of life, freedom, equality, safety and property, in the following terms:
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V—it is assured the right of reaction, proportional to its trigger, along with monetary compensation for material, moral, or one's image damage.
VI — the freedom of conscience and belief is inviolable, being assured the freedom of rituals to all religious cults and assured, by words of the law, the protection of religious' temples and their liturgies.
VII — it is assured by the law the assistance of religious nature in the civil and military entities of collective interments.
Therefore, as you have the right to express your faith and belief in whatever temple you go to, no matter the words used in prayers or sacred texts, so do I and all others. We are entitled to believe in what we want to believe, as do you. Your rights are also the rights of all Brazilian people, even if unfortunately most people don't have their most basic rights respected and attended to. including that of praying and believing in what they want, how they want, being protected by this unpopular book quoted above..
If your religious intolerance was caused by ignorance of the laws created and promulgated by the Brazil who had recently taken down a military regiment and re-established democracy—and let's not forget Ustra died of age —, alright, however not knowing a criminal typification exists doesn't give the individual who has acted in its scope from being penalised by said law.
Then, now that you have such knowledge, great! You go on with your life and faith and I do the same with mine, and we're cool.
Now, if your intolerance has roots in following ex-president Bolsonaro, then leave. Being a witch means being connected to nature above all else, and these “good Samaritans” aren't even concerned with environmental damages, killing our rivers and burning our trees. Defiling the body and womb of our Great Mother, who offers so much more than we humans deserve.
Now that things are crystal clear, in case you are here out of mere curiosity and interest and search for your spirituality, you're more than welcome! The door is and will always be open to those searching for their individual and unachievable (to others) truth. I wish you a good time reading, and the form below redirects the entries in it to my e-mail, in case you have any questions you'd like me to try answering.\ solid and spiritual, esoterical, related to occultism and coming from people who are here for the right reasons.
Making it clear, I won't hesitate to turn form entries in to the Federal Police in case of religious intolerance posted in it—as I said, the lack of previous knowledge of a crime doesn't give the citizens the freedom to commit it.
May the Elements guide your conscience and may the Deities answer your prayers and deepest desires (if respected as required, obviously).
May it be so, and so it will be. As above as it is below. Blessed be.
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