It's very difficult to love someone as much as I realise I love A. today.

Suddenly, at 10 p.m., I felt in my soul a gigantic anxiety and an absurd need to check on A's well-being:

? How is he feeling at the moment?
Result: Hexagram 6 - Conflict

This print run worried me too much, so I started with the cards. I drew a lot of cards, but a lot. If I summarise the interpretations, I had a fight with his mother about going out after the ballet (he may have been scolded for being late to go to his grandmother's house, which was actually my fault).

As for what Gypsy Magdalene suggests I do to help you wake up...

The Letter + The Woman + The Heart + The Ring + The Birds

As I understand it, I'm supposed to communicate with him vocally, because I'm the one he's in a romantic relationship with. Which implies place. But he's a busy person, and tomorrow he works...

In the end, what can't you do for love?

I meditated at 11.30 p.m. asking for guidance so that I could help the one who has my heart in this life (to make sure it didn't fall on T.).

And to my surprise... the person who came to talk to me was Bel. Belenus, God of the Sun, Fire, companion of the Goddess. His presence is both comforting and terrifying, given the power he undoubtedly has in his existence.

The Fire Lord told me to lose my fear, let the Sun purify my anxiety and call A. at 1pm under the light of the rising sun, because that's the peak of His power. He said that A. is in need of someone to bring the Sun to lighten the oppressive darkness that surrounds him at the moment, and that I'm the only one who cares enough about him to do it.

I asked Iansã and Aphrodite to soothe the pain of the one I love. They both frowned and told me that their domains (the storm, the winds, love, the tide) are neither afraid nor ask for permission, and advised me to call, as it was the consolidation of my concern for the one who occupies my mind uninterruptedly.

I have to swallow my fear and anxiety and hope that everything works out. I hope it does. So be it, and so it shall be.

Especially today, may you be blessed.