The complete absence of T.'s chosen one hurts me in a strange way.

It hurts me as a person, because we were going down a very nice path, and obviously, at the very least, I like him. There was no time to fall in love, of course - but my feelings for him go beyond a crush, for example.

It hurts me as a soul because I feel I'm failing T. and L. by not being able to take the relationship with the one they both chose to be my family forward.

But... Yesterday, when I went to see my teacher, my leg started to bruise out of the blue, all day long. And another child bite appeared, on the same leg as the bite that became a scar last month, but on the front of the thigh this time.

Considering that these two things have only happened once in my life, when my uncle was fucking with me and redoing the spell whose purpose is to prevent me from enjoying my completeness as a woman, I decided to stop procrastinating and write down the list of ingredients in the ebó that Taurina received from Oxalá during the conch reading.

I'll list it in this post, so I feel more obliged to keep my word since it seems like I'm promising something to others (even if I'm not, at least it's worth it).

Blessed be.