Bloody hell. Tonight is particularly difficult. Not that restless legs having an episode are the only impediment: somehow I'm also suffering from heartburn, insomnia, nausea, migraines, hyperactivity... all at the same time.

After I made the final decision not to lift a finger to ask oracles about A., I don't know if this has made me more nervous or calmer; the hormonal lack of control caused by menstruation also doesn't help me understand the confusion in my head about my feelings regarding the path my life should be following but which seems to be deviating more and more sharply with each passing day.

I really hope that tomorrow's "Goddess support group" run of the Oracle of the Goddesses will help, because I'm definitely in need of support. I need to know how to be patient until August and endure all this anxiety. I need to get back to yoga, to eating regularly and healthily... today I'm going to try to reorganise my reminders and tasks apps and see if from Monday I can follow my routine as planned. Yoga was helping to contain my anxiety, maybe it will help again?

We'll see in the morning, I guess...

Blessed be.