It's very sad that I can't share my spiritual evolutions with my mum. She has always been my role model as a spiritual person, an oracle maker, an esotericist in general. And I, like a huge idiot, continued to develop my spirituality.

K. and my teacher had already warned me that my mum would try to demean me on a material, sentimental and spiritual level.

But how do I hold my damn tongue that can't shut up? Sometimes I wish my Cancer would overpower my Gemini and the exact opposite happens.

My shoulders warmed with energy as I meditated and Isis allowed me to channel Your presence. And I thought it would be nice to tell my mum about it, because I don't know how to shut up. Isis told me that my mum isn't going to change, and that when I need a mother, I should turn to the Great Mother - she didn't say if it was to pray to her or if any face of the Goddess works for that. Isis also told me to light a silver candle under the moon when my faith wavers.

I'm dying to continue writing my meditation, but I'm sure I opened portals while I was writing, because I got hot all over. Then I stopped.

I think I should write here too. I was

May I be protected in the name of Earth, Air, Fire, Water and the Goddess who rules all that exists. May it be so and it shall be so.

Blessed be.