"Persistence is the path to success." 
Charlie Chaplin, artist.

Maybe it's just not meant to be.

I still love him. A., I mean. But something is obviously preventing him from being with me 100%, and I'd like to help him overcome that barrier, but, Aryan that he is, he won't let anyone see him battling and perhaps being defeated even temporarily, especially not his romantic partner. When would Ares let Aphrodite see him lose, right?

I miss him and worry about him, but I drew on the cards that the relationship will be stabilised by August. Although I can't help and support him during this war for independence and freedom from his mother's control and oppression, I understand why he doesn't want me to be around.

Even more so with me, perhaps being the trigger for such a "final battle" against the old-fashioned and oppressive traditions placed in his upbringing by his mother and his mother's religion. With his Moon in Taurus, it's easy to understand that his emotions spiral when he's not in control. And it's easy to understand that his mother is also a very strong Taurean presence in his life and routine.

Precisely because I love him, I know him well enough to say that I know and I have certainty that he has the courage and strength to win such a battle and conquer the war. He's a warrior, he's achieved so much, and I'm so proud of him for it.

He wasn't chosen by my soulmate for nothing - he's a warrior, strong, protective, loyal, loving and brave just like T. is. And I love them both with all my heart.

As the Maha Lilah said: have faith in Divine Providence. As the I-Ching said: "The woman remains loyal to her dead husband. Even if she would prefer to see with both eyes, she does the best she can with the sight she has left." And I believe in the Goddess, the Coniferous God, Lilah (the dancing force that creates the Universe) and T.

I promised T. last night that I would do my utmost every day to evolve more and more as a person, a wife, a mum and a witch. And I plan to keep my word. When I promise something, it's a guarantee of fulfilment. And so it is above, as it is below.

Blessed be.