Eu comecei esse blog justamente porque minha mãe me maltratava quando eu começava a falar de bruxaria com ela. E eu me arrependo amargamente toda vez que eu tiro qualquer oráculo para ela, porque ela grita comigo, me espezinha.
Hoje, o Tarô disse para ela que ela precisa meditar. E ela gritou comigo dizendo que eu estava dando um conselho sem noção e que não estava entendendo nada do que ela queria dizer. Cara, não bata no mensageiro, sabe?
Identifiquei o exu dela momentos antes de tirar as cartas, e ele até encostou nela a ponto dela manifestar, e ela ainda tem a cara de pau de brigar comigo como se eu não estivesse só traduzindo uma mensagem do mundo espiritual para ela?
Não sei porque ainda tiro. Não sei porque ainda busco a aprovação dela.
Realmente, a saída é esperar o Universo e a espiritualidade jogarem quem quer que seja meu futuro marido escolhido pelo T. no meu colo, já que tudo que eu tiro fala para eu esperar pacientemente e não fazer nada, para poder sair desse ambiente tóxico e poder ter um lar onde minha espiritualidade não só é bem-vinda como apreciada.
A guardian, she offers protection to those who seek it, especially victims of domestic violence. Intense force for justice and female empowerment.
How to tell if Medusa is contacting you
Dreaming of Medusa
seeing the goddess herself or some of her symbols in your dreams
artistic representations of Medusa begin to appear around her
If you are recovering from domestic violence
is not a requirement for working with Medusa
you may feel more in control of your mental and emotional spheres
Snakes approaching you
injured or in need of other care
Feeling obliged to take action in their own defence
Situations in which to call Medusa
you need strength to challenge your enemies
face your fears
bewitch your abusers
She is a sea goddess, so her domain includes all magic related to water, witches of the sea and storms, seafaring and the like.
Devotional acts to Medusa
Connect with Medusa's element, water
Dedicate space on your altar to Medusa
Create any artwork about Medusa or buy an artwork and place it on your altar
Read about Medusa
Fighting for women's rights
Divination mainly by pendulum
Offerings to Medusa
shells
corals
snake stones
representations of snakes
petrified wood
beach biscuit
starfish
beach sand
silver
snakeskin that has been replaced naturally
aquamarine (crystal)
malachite
moonstone
pearl
sea water
sea salt
fresh water incense
seafood
wine
Medusa Symbols
Snakes
Silver and green colours
Eyes
Aegis: a representation of Medusa that decorates Athena's shield
Gorgon Eyes
Herbs associated with Medusa
sage
nettle
mandrake
artemisia
lavender
hawthorn
Crystals associated with Medusa
serpentine
black obsidian
amethyst
blood jasper
labradorite
Steno, the one who oppresses
Euryale, the distant
Zisa, Goddess of the Harvest
Associated by the Romans with the Egyptian goddess Isis, Zisa is the Germanic goddess of the harvest, fertility, motherhood and the Mother Creator of life on Earth.
Symbols associated with Zisa
pine cone
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the Teiwaz rune
destination matrix
Chang'O/Chang'E, Goddess of the Moon
Origin: China
Symbols associated with Chang'e
moon
hare
cow
bee
frog
Plants associated with Chang'e
lotus flower
Lotus root
Flavours associated with Chang'e
roses
vanilla
musk
Colours associated with Chang'e
white
grey
light blue
baby pink
pastel colours
silver
Crystals and metals associated with Chang'e
silver
moonstone
pearl
amethyst
aquamarine
Haumea, Mother Earth
Origin: Polynesia, Hawaii
Today marks the start of the Aloha Festival, a week-long celebration of local traditions and history complemented by dances, parades and sports competitions.
Guardian goddess of the island of Hawaii, goddess of the Earth, fertility, birth, rebirth, physical nourishment and the protection of traditions to preserve them from extinction.
Twin sons of Iansã and Xangô, created by Oxum who named them Taiwo and Kehinde. Their domains are birth, childhood and play, associated with everything that begins and is born.
Remember that twins should always receive equivalent, equal offerings
Offerings to Ibeji
honey
fruit
paçoca
lollipop
gummy candy
jujube
cakes
chocolate
mary jane
guarana
kuru
fruit juice
soft drinks
Colours associated with Ibeji
blue
pink
green
Symbols associated with Ibeji
twin dolls
two little gourds
toys
Plants associated with Ibeji
jasmine
apple
rosemary
pink
Metal associated with Ibeji
tin
Salute to Ibeji
Omi Beijada!
Omiibeji, Bejéeró!
Source: Yearbook of the Great Mother, Mirella Faur, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6), (7), (8), (9), (10), (11), (12), (13)
"Persistence is the path to success." Charlie Chaplin, artist.
Maybe it's just not meant to be.
I still love him. A., I mean. But something is obviously preventing him from being with me 100%, and I'd like to help him overcome that barrier, but, Aryan that he is, he won't let anyone see him battling and perhaps being defeated even temporarily, especially not his romantic partner. When would Ares let Aphrodite see him lose, right?
I miss him and worry about him, but I drew on the cards that the relationship will be stabilised by August. Although I can't help and support him during this war for independence and freedom from his mother's control and oppression, I understand why he doesn't want me to be around.
Even more so with me, perhaps being the trigger for such a "final battle" against the old-fashioned and oppressive traditions placed in his upbringing by his mother and his mother's religion. With his Moon in Taurus, it's easy to understand that his emotions spiral when he's not in control. And it's easy to understand that his mother is also a very strong Taurean presence in his life and routine.
Precisely because I love him, I know him well enough to say that I know and I have certainty that he has the courage and strength to win such a battle and conquer the war. He's a warrior, he's achieved so much, and I'm so proud of him for it.
He wasn't chosen by my soulmate for nothing - he's a warrior, strong, protective, loyal, loving and brave just like T. is. And I love them both with all my heart.
As the Maha Lilah said: have faith in Divine Providence. As the I-Ching said: "The woman remains loyal to her dead husband. Even if she would prefer to see with both eyes, she does the best she can with the sight she has left." And I believe in the Goddess, the Coniferous God, Lilah (the dancing force that creates the Universe) and T.
I promised T. last night that I would do my utmost every day to evolve more and more as a person, a wife, a mum and a witch. And I plan to keep my word. When I promise something, it's a guarantee of fulfilment. And so it is above, as it is below.
I can't describe what seeing A. again did to me... Wow, it's so good just to look at him. Just hearing him sing there without him even knowing I was there was enough, but when my friend denounced my presence and he came to talk to me...
He said he'd come to the café on the Wednesday after school to see me and spend some time with me, but as he says, he's the Knight of Hearts: he makes promises with great intentions of keeping them, but he never manages to fulfil them because something always stops him, and it's not because he doesn't want to.
He told me himself that if I had called him when he was missing, he would have picked up. Now I've learnt my lesson. I'll call him on Wednesday afternoon, around 4pm, and ask if he's really coming. If he doesn't, I'll suggest something for us to do. I want to be there for him more. I want to remind him that he's not alone. Even if I'm not the company he wants... I don't know, he said it was great to see me and that seeing me yesterday gave him strength for today, even if passively. I hope he continues to feel that way... All I want is to see him well, with or without me.
Hi, I'm not going to give my name, just to be safe - after all, people in my family have tried and will probably try to harm me spiritually. I'm in my early twenties, Brazilian, a university graduate but without a real job. I like to study anything, read, play video games, board games, take oracles, watch films and listen to podcasts, usually about politics. I'm an introvert, with no friends, no boyfriend or girlfriend, really a lonely witch - the name of the blog is sincere, even if sometimes it's painful to remember that. I'm sentimental, affectionate, clingy, sometimes a bit clumsy, with a very vulgar vocabulary, but polite when I need to be; I like fashion and make-up, I'm good at handicrafts. I speak four languages and plan to learn more. I've lived abroad, but this is where I belong. Oh, and I also love to cook, especially sweets. I love trying out new recipes and creating my own versions. I also have a passion for music, from classical to good old rock'n'roll. Whenever I can, I go to concerts and festivals, it's where I really feel alive. I've been singing for over a decade, mainly musical theatre, and I play the piano and guitar, as well as the recorder.
Ah, the image above is a very faithful and detailed representation of my appearance in the past life in which I was a Celt, by the way.
Blessed be.
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My mum tells me not to be afraid of her leaving me with no money, but it doesn't seem that way. Just today she told me to pay for my psychiatrist, blocking me from accessing the bacno's mobile phone as if I were a compulsive consumerist.
She does it just like her father; I don't know how she doesn't see it. Or she must see it and not give a damn.
The clan had once seemed like an opportunity to escape, and it fell apart; as did any job and any way of earning my own money; as did a possible marriage so that my mum would stop saying that I depend on her because she's my only family... Everything is going wrong and I don't know what to do anymore.
I need to get out of this suffocation caused by her boot around my neck, and I don't know what else to do. There's nothing to do in terms of prayer or spirituality. Everything is wrong. Everything is going wrong. Everything, everything, everything, everything.......................................................................................................................................
Bloody hell. Tonight is particularly difficult. Not that restless legs having an episode are the only impediment: somehow I'm also suffering from heartburn, insomnia, nausea, migraines, hyperactivity... all at the same time.
After I made the final decision not to lift a finger to ask oracles about A., I don't know if this has made me more nervous or calmer; the hormonal lack of control caused by menstruation also doesn't help me understand the confusion in my head about my feelings regarding the path my life should be following but which seems to be deviating more and more sharply with each passing day.
I really hope that tomorrow's "Goddess support group" run of the Oracle of the Goddesses will help, because I'm definitely in need of support. I need to know how to be patient until August and endure all this anxiety. I need to get back to yoga, to eating regularly and healthily... today I'm going to try to reorganise my reminders and tasks apps and see if from Monday I can follow my routine as planned. Yoga was helping to contain my anxiety, maybe it will help again?
My mum said that if Hecate appeared to me demanding that I blog, perhaps I should write more often. But then I think about what to write about.
The only thing I have to write about today is therapy, and how sad it made me. I agree with K. - that things will only get underway by whatever force of fate is responsible for that part of my life in the second half of the year. However, I still have the same question I asked her today, the answer to which didn't satisfy my self-inquiry. How the fuck am I supposed to distract myself and keep my anxiety out of my passive and active thoughts until then? How do I stay sane and motivated until August?
I had motivation and willpower in November, December, January, February... March has already diminished too much, and now... now I don't feel the presence of any fuel that my vital fire/fire in the arse, to be clear, can consume in order to illuminate my vision of things and warm my cold heart and spirit.
Worse still, if I'd known how to refill such fuel, I would have done it. But I don't. And I don't know how to find out. I have two more sessions tomorrow, and I didn't want to use those times to talk about the same thing. To feel useless and anxious in the same way. To feel confused and weepy and hopeless and once again completely lost and alone and, at the same time, on the edge of an abyss whose floor I have no pretence of seeing. Because I know I won't see the ground, I'll feel broken, I'll feel like I'm about to fall, and I probably will.
I don't even dare ask for guidance from any deity, because I have no way of asking for guidance on a path that I don't even believe exists.
I wasn't going to write anything. But my mum said that Hecate told her to tell me that I had to write about "today" sitting where I am.
I'd promised the Goddess that I wouldn't write again until after Lent, effectively quarantining myself, and I think she's come to collect. More than right.
Today was... interesting. I was going to go out with S. to study Tarot, but we happened to bump into R. and, outspoken as she is, she immediately took over the day and stopped my Tarot lesson that I was going to give S.
But that led me to draw cards for another protégé of the Lady of the Night, and discover that my master is also of the Lady. I never knew that, and I'm honoured to hear it. She's pretty cool, really, it makes sense to have a Goddess on your shoulder like I do. And still the same. I'm amazed that Hecate even chose me.
Today, T.'s chosen one came out of his quarantine. After not posting anything on Instagram since 8 March, I had been worried until L., T., K., and the Gypsy Ticia (who I have no idea who she is), apart from the Persian Goddess whose identity I have yet to discover, told me that I would know he was physically well on 1 April. Said and done.
He posted a singing reel today, and I missed him so much it broke my heart. I've decided not to work as a prayer therapist this month - I'm going to focus on my studies, not on my practice. Because when I draw for others, I feel like drawing for myself and I see my cards for others being confirmed while all the cards I draw for myself are not.
I apologised to him for burdening him, even though he asked me to tell him everything... But he didn't reply, and if I were him, I wouldn't either. I deleted the Instagram app, considering that I only downloaded it to know that he was alive and well. Its function has been fulfilled.
The Maha Lilah told me to focus on myself, to trust in divine providence and the I-Ching told me to trust in T. And I do, and that's why it hurts. Because I trust so much that I don't want to fail him again. I don't want to fail L. by not being able to bring him to life as I did in my last life.
Perhaps dedicating myself to my studies is the answer for now.
The complete absence of T.'s chosen one hurts me in a strange way.
It hurts me as a person, because we were going down a very nice path, and obviously, at the very least, I like him. There was no time to fall in love, of course - but my feelings for him go beyond a crush, for example.
It hurts me as a soul because I feel I'm failing T. and L. by not being able to take the relationship with the one they both chose to be my family forward.
But... Yesterday, when I went to see my teacher, my leg started to bruise out of the blue, all day long. And another child bite appeared, on the same leg as the bite that became a scar last month, but on the front of the thigh this time.
Considering that these two things have only happened once in my life, when my uncle was fucking with me and redoing the spell whose purpose is to prevent me from enjoying my completeness as a woman, I decided to stop procrastinating and write down the list of ingredients in the ebó that Taurina received from Oxalá during the conch reading.
I'll list it in this post, so I feel more obliged to keep my word since it seems like I'm promising something to others (even if I'm not, at least it's worth it).